Unconditional
Won a gold medal of the English teacher presenter in Bandung. With my colleagues trained the kids and won twenty trophies and more. The finalist of teacher poetry reading competition. Appointed as the vice principle of public relation. Organized the first SKY coffee break to bridge better communication between parents and school. Strove to be a reliable official host of school events. Got a new classroom. Invited guest teachers from the Netherlands, the UK, the Philippines, and Japan to my classes! Fell in love. Fell out of love. Fell in love again.
2017 has been both awakening and unnerving. There were
moments I cheered my class or when I worked from Monday to Sunday relentlessly
for the success of the school programs. But, the harder I tried, at the end of
the day, the worse I lost the balance. And so, often did I forget how to tell groovy stories which made me
speak a hail of bad words, blaming myself for the absurdity and the feeling of not
enough - not yet perfect. I was bored. I was exhausted.
Those negative emotions actually tell me that I have expanded beyond what I have learned to allow. Everything has been expansive beyond what I was ready for. Everything is teaching a lesson. Everything is humbly good. It’s no longer about waiting for something good to happen, but immersing into the present moment. The kids, the parents, and the people I have rendezvous with have inspired me to rely on my inner voice and to cultivate my passion even more wholly.
Those negative emotions actually tell me that I have expanded beyond what I have learned to allow. Everything has been expansive beyond what I was ready for. Everything is teaching a lesson. Everything is humbly good. It’s no longer about waiting for something good to happen, but immersing into the present moment. The kids, the parents, and the people I have rendezvous with have inspired me to rely on my inner voice and to cultivate my passion even more wholly.
Instead of focusing on things that didn't work, I promise to count the blessings more often. This is about the love of life that will enable me to catch more gracious moments. And, those moments are the most expensive commodity that life can offer.
Yes. I am so grateful for experiencing the power of maintaining order wrapped up in growth, freedom, and joy! The gentle world only comes forth when I'm concious that every situation I face is just perfect the way it is!
Which means... There's nothing to hold back. I relax.
“He will cover you with His feathers and under His wings you will find refuge.”
Psalm 91:4
Peace and love,
(Sunshine)
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